Nice guys will always finish last

So what's the point in trying to be a good person? i have been fucked around one too many times recently. okay so maybe some things i may have over-reacted about, but when things pile on you all at once it just turns into one massive piss take.

What annoys me so much is when your efforts to be the best person you can be go unnoticed. when you put your neck on the line for someone, when you change your plans for someone, when you trust someone, when you go totally out of your way for someone just to make them happy. what do you get out of that? the personal satisfaction knowing you did something good? if you believe that, you're lieing. a simple 'thank you' or an understanding friend when after all your efforts you are unable to do what you said, just to let you know that your efforts haven't gone unappreciated or unnoticed. to be able to share your problems with friends no matter how silly they may be, and have them take you seriously. it's the small things like this that say 'thank you'.

But what do you do when this isn't enough? when your 'friends' can't see what you have sacrificed to help them or to please them. do you get angry? do you confront them? No. You can't. you can't do this because then you instantly become the bad guy. you'll be seen as unappreciative or a bitch. so you just have to get over it. if you get mad every time someone doesn't respond to an action of yours in the desired way you wouldn't have any friends left. but sometimes you have to vent, you have to say how you feel or it builds up and up and up, until you start thinking and saying things you don't even mean, possibly to people who didn't upset you in the first place. which again leaves you being the bitch.

So what could you possibly do? by forgiving, venting or forgetting, you'll always end up the one being hurt. the one who needs help the most. the one who can't understand why they deserve to be so unhappy.

However, you can't not do good things, because it's not in your nature. you aim to please, and even if that means that once again you'll be the one who hurts, you do everything you can to please people, because you're the nice guy.